Thursday, November 29, 2007

Vita - Thompson IX


The Soul Eater Rune

As for those who knows several Latin words, vita means life, which I would discuss in this post. Those who read this post I would advise do not be assumed that its gonna be another writing about life of certain person, which they used to put about their story and how life that revolves around that person. It is a writing about the general thing about life, a simple question like "what is life?" or perhaps the most famous is "what is the meaning of life?"

I read a book about the History of Philosophy one day at the library, I was glazing through until I stumble across an interesting quote, "Life is an eternal struggle caused by desire" which the quote is in the Buddhism section. I think about it for awhile and it is true. That quote is the answer of "what is life?". Therefore the meaning of life is... The struggle and competition to fill one's desire. Notice I put competition on it, for sometimes one's desire conflict another one's desire.

The theory of human trinity that I synthesize myself and fit the word "desire" into this quote, which is the soul. After several thoughts I concluded that every living things have a desire. Like for the desire to eat in order to live. Our body nerves gives signal that we are hungry we must eat, we have been trained like that from baby, we cry when were are hungry. Therefore it becomes a habit, when we are hungry we eat.

I told this theory one my little brother one day and he declines the theory. What you need is not what you desire. So... something like food is something you need not desire, need and desire is a different thing he said. I though this in several hours to concluded that what we need depends on our desire. Here is why.

Have you ever wondered why we eat? Is eating something we need or desire? Firstly If in our soul desire to live, therefore we need to eat, but if our soul desire death would eating be necessary? No. But the problem is, not all people have ever realized why we eat anyway, because the desire of food or perhaps to live is inside our subconsciousnesses which in my previous post that I have stated. Therefore I would say that even though what we need and what our desire is not the same but they are proportional to each other. For what we need is depends on what we desire.

We already talked about "desire" in the "Life is an eternal struggle caused by desire" now it is about the struggle, in order to satisfy our desire we need to do something in order to get it. We want food, we make one ourself or just buy them. We want money we do many methods to gain money, we want love, we find them, or make em.

But what if an event of a person that his or her desire is being fulfilled without the proper amount of struggle? There would be an imbalance event in their life, In order not to be affected by this his/her body of emotion and mind must be strong. For example, a guy who won a million dollar lottery ticket, which money is what he desire, the struggle however is very minuscule that obtain the money, he could spends all of it or do whatever they want, but I have heard that those people who won this kinds of thing usually suicide when the money is all spent. Without a strong mind and the body of emotion, struggle with little amount to fill desire might be hazardous.

As we all know, our newer generation now feels that almost everything is instant, compare to our old generation, therefore we could say that technology gives us less struggle to fill our desire. This way our new generation have become a habit of a state of mind. That way usually new generation wants thing faster perhaps.

But at the end, in order to be happy; that is if you want your life to be happy. We have to have a proper amount of struggle to achieve our desire that our mind know of. Without that proper amount of struggle we could never feel content.

On the next post I will talk about happiness, which usually people would say that their purpose of life is to be happy.

Wednesday, November 28, 2007

FOOLS

Love makes people do stupid and sometimes crazy things. Sometimes love is scary. Look at the person falling in love. They can do anything for the person they love. You can laugh at how stupid and ridiculous they are; singing loud a love song, smile and laugh uncontrollably, writing long letters, giggling, spends 3 hours on the phone, phone bill increases drastically, saying all those sweet sayings, and other more. But when love hits you, you are the one doing these stuff, and maybe worse. You are willing to do anything for the person you love, and you don’t care when people are laughing at how stupid you are spending that much money.
But these things are proof and honor the one you love. You proof to the one you love that you love the person. These fools things that you did may convinced them that you really do love them. Also, may honor them when they find out that you are willing to look like a fool to let them know you love them. At the end, the truth is that no matter how people make fun of you, how foolish you look, when you’re in love, you going to feel better than anyone else in the world.

“When you are Loved, and when you love someone, you “live””

One of the examples of a FOOL is CHRIST. Christ was willing to be the FOOL. What made Him a FOOL? First, He loves people who hated Him. Secondly, He loves us; people who sinned and only want to love them. Thirdly, it is a foolish for Jesus to suffered and died on the cross, only to show how big His love to us. Jesus does not just love greatly, but He is the BESTEST example of what Love should be. His foolish Love conquered His death, and OUR death. How amazing His love is, that right now you could feel his unconditional love.

So what are we waiting for? It is our turn to love Jesus back even if it means we might look foolish. But to compare with Jesus, we owe Him our lives. So why can’t we love Him back? We must be willing to be Fool for Christ. Sometimes, we, as a teenager thinks serving in a church or being part of a youth group look foolish to other people around us. Even when we worship, sometimes we’re thinking that we look foolish, or sometimes we’re not fully giving our all to Him because we think that they might think we’re a fool. When we worship, we are giving back our life to Him, we want to show Jesus our love for Him too. How? Every word that we said, or sing, we try to understand so that we can sing with conviction. The main reason we are singing is to worship Him from our heart.

Everything we do to serve GOD, although we may look foolish to others, but definitely not to CHRIST. Don’t let others influence you just because they think you look like a fool, but prove to them that you are willing to do anything for the LORD.

-del

EXAMS!

As everyone has noticed, many IB students have suffered from many exams symptoms, especially lack of sleeping and extreme frustration. Even though this exam may not be as hard as those that seniors are working on really hard, but we as grade 11s had just experienced our first actual tough test.
The first day was probably the worst of the three. Early in the morning, frustration can really be felt from outside classes. Some students were studying their subjects, some are very relaxed, while some were just apathetic about the exams. After homeroom session, everyone were released and head toward examination room. Seniors were already there and certainly have less tension than us. Bahasa Indonesia started our examination marathon. It was not as tough as everyone think it would be, but still, there are 5 more exams to go. The next was economics test, which i considered to be one of the the hardest besides chemistry and biology. It requires us to be detailed, which is one of the things i always lack in writting. I wasn't in the group 4 humanities, so the third and probably a very tiring for the first day.
The second day was better, we were all adapted to the examination situation. We were not as tensed as the day before. Even though it was biology, but we were all more relaxed. I guess everyone had enough time to review from the weeks before. The test was really hard though, but it was still reasonable. Then i had english test, which is another writting test. I don't think i did well in this particular test because i was really tired of reviewing bio that i can't even differ Macbeth and Gatsby, but i managed to get through it.
Well, tomorrow would be the last day for exams, i really hope i can get through chemistry and math.

James A2 HL

Tuesday, November 27, 2007

End of Exam Week – Frederick

I’m satisfied, tomorrow is like the last day of the exam. And I only got math left. Today, I studied at Gio’s house directly after school to about 8 am. Actually, we didn’t study, haha. On our way to Gio’s house, we stopped to drop Thompson that wants to go to his home. But his little brother left him at the school, so he should ask his friends to drop him. When we arrived to some place, Thompson said that he wanted to be dropped here, so we dropped him there. We thought that his home is close to that place, but guess what? He ran. He crosses like 3 roads only for 30 seconds. Gosh, he was like the fastest person that crosses 3 roads I’ve ever seen. It’s Jakarta, lots of car, but he still managed to cross the road with that speed of Thompson (referring to speed of light, haha).

In Gio’s home, we actually didn’t study at all. Me, James and Gio are like haha haha. After James goes home, Jason came. He was like showing off his piano skills. Blargh. We spent like 4 hours for nothing; we didn’t even do 1 single question. I’m really gonna fail tomorrow.

In this exam week, the subjects that I’m sure that I will fail is ITGS (for sure, maybe a 0. I can’t answer a single question.), Physics (not sure, hopefully a 3 or a 4.), English (hopefully not, but I think I missed some points. Damn.) and maybe Math for tomorrow. I might fail. I mean, we got the formula booklet and we can use calculator. The common sense is that we shouldn’t fail since we got like everything. But I think I’m going to fail it anyways.

In conclusion, I’m quite satisfied about the finish of the exam week. But I’m not that satisfied with my exam results. I hope at least Miss Jess will have mercy on me.

PS: MISS JESS, IF YOU READ THIS, PLEASE DO HAVE MERCY WHEN MARKING MY EXAM. TEE-HEE.

-Frederick

Monday, November 26, 2007

Youth camp

Last weekend, I just had a youth camp with my youth at church organization called YFC (Youth For Christ). It was a BLAST! AWESOME! and was a SUCCESS! I was part of the team who organizes the youth camp, and I learned a lot of things through this. One month for preparation for me is not enough. Especially, the service team are made up of people in Pluit and Karawaci. And we found that its hard to conduct a meeting for the youth camp since the places are far from each other. At first, I thought that the youth camp was not going to happen because just 2 weeks before the camp, we don't have the exact place for the youth camp, and no promotion as well. I was freaking out, but I was wondering that the others were not freaking out. Well, 1 and a half weeks before the camp, we held a meeting for the youth camp preparation, like promoting it to everyone, held a fund raising, checking the venue again, and made schedule. The day before the youth camp, people from Karawaci held a brief meeting about tomorrow's planning, and we found out that there was a problem of the transportation. I was really angry at that time, but I knew that I have to be patience. I asked GOD to guide me, and to just bless the Youth Camp so that everything would work smoothly. And you know what? GOD love us so much that he not just make the youth camp happens, but also giving so many participants. I was really amazed of His love.

During the youth camp, I found out that we had to pay extra money, and I was really pissed again, because we have no more money. But I overcame it just with prayer. The first night of the youth camp, I had to prepare a presentation for talk 1, for the next morning. I was really nervous because it was my first time giving a talk. I kept thinking that I'm ready, but then I'm not. That feelings goes on and off till the minute before my talk. Actually, for me to stand in front of a lot of people, and giving a talk or session is one of my fear in my life. As I was being introduced by my friends (MC), I decided to just let go of my fear; I walked there, still nervous though. Then I started to talk about GOD's Love and His plan for us. When I greet the participants, they all reacted quitly, not replying. At that moment, I told myself, "I just failed". But I kept talking, connecting my talk to the power point presentation, I still tried to interact with them, and just talk all the way. At the end of my talk, they started to interact more, started to "laugh" when they suppose to laugh, and I just felt really happy. After I gave my talk, I went out of the chapel, and I opened my arms wide, I was reliefed! I thank God for that opportunities. After giving talk, I just felt that I just overcome my fear. (well not all of them, but most of them)
Later on that day, we were having a one on one conversation with the participants. We were suppose to be a place for them to tell everything about their problems, difficulties in their life, and other more. I gave them some advices, and I couldn't believe that I said things like that. Some of the things I said, it never really think about it, and never came across my mind. But it was unbelievable, that I said things like that without really thinking about what I gotta say. Also, as I was praying for the at the pray over, I also felt things like that. It was all God's Love, His grace, and I was touched!

It is my priviledge to serve Him, one of the way is through this! His Love made all things possible.

-del

Our volleyball season is at last starts, as basketball season has ended. With our coach Ibu Riri and assistant coach, Marlon, they’re having tryouts for the first two weeks for the people who are interested to join. They will make two teams for this year’s volleyball season. Several of my friends who never join the volley team, joined this year’s team to gain experience and also for CAS points. Well, for me it doesn’t matter if I’m going to have CAS points or not. For the first day of tryout, there are not as much of people as I expected because some of them don’t bring clothes for practicing. But the list of people who are going to join the team reaches until 30 people. We have to compete with each other in fighting for the spot in the team. For the second day of the tryout, there are a lot of girls practicing. It is really a huge amount of girls, all from 10- 12 grade, but mostly grade 11. Most of the girls were in the team last year. I miss playing volley with them and now it’s time to enjoy my time with them.

I made the volleyball team. I was so happy because we could have our ‘dream team’ in volleyball. Other than that, I can’t wait to join the soccer tournament next week on December 1 at Global Jaya and also AIS basketball tournament for the following week. I also really miss soccer. Soccer for me is just a game for fun with my friends, and every time we played soccer, we laughed so hard. No matter what the score is, we are going to have fun!!!!!


I still have time writing this blog, even though I have to study. Tomorow I got 3 subjects exam. 2 more days till the end of the exam. Then I'm free!!! Well, not that free. But at least, I'm out of exam! :)

-del

1st Day of Exams. – Frederick

1st day of the week, 1st day of the exams, 3 exams in a row. What a day. On this day, I feel bad. Think of it, I got 3 exams in this day, 2 of them are the one that you should memorize. I’m bad at memorizing. People says that Monday is the worst day of the week. People also said that the 1st day of an exam is very annoying. And everyone knows that having 3 exams in a row is a hell on earth. How about having all of them in the same day? Blarrrghhh.

I’m sick of exams already. I can’t do the ITGS exam today. I was all blank. i can’t answer a single question, it was so hard. I don’t know if it’s because of the bahasa and economics exam. But I really can’t recall anything from my study. I abhor this day. I really do.

Now that tomorrow I have physics and English exam. I don’t think I could write many things in this blog. Physics is also a subject that I don’t like. Why would I take this subject? Aaaarrgh.

I am really not into the mood of writing blogs today, but I know that I have not written them on last week so I think I should write it now. I am so pissedddddddd!!!!!!

Why doesn’t school give 1 exam per day? Why don’t they be smarter in making decisions? I really feel like swearing all over my blog now. It would be really nice if I move next year. IB is just a pain in the ass. No good things about it, it can’t even guarantee you to a desired university.

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BLARGH! EXAMS!

*Sorry for this bad post. But I really want to say this kind of things.

-Frederick